A Dream Journal Series – Stories Come to Life

  • Date: 17th January 2021
  • Lucidity: 5 / 10
  • Vividity: 7 / 10
  • Realism: 9 / 10

In the middle of nowhere, a house stood out in the night.

A warm orange glow could be seen from miles, warmth enveloped those within. Inside a group of friends lay in their beds, wide awake yet half dreaming telling each other stories of far away places close to our hearts.

It was my turn.

But before I tell, I must explain the days or even weeks leading up to this moment. You see, I had this book that was with me all the time. A book of short stories with beautiful illustrations of the characters of which they tell. Flicking through the book, there were dozens of characters and their stories told, but many more of whom had empty stages.

And so it was that night when I read these stories out aloud, that we all realised, it was the stories of ourselves. The characters were them and the stories were real.

How this was so I did not know. What I did know was that when I wrote these stories, it wasn’t just me. There was another hand. As if I was entranced while doing so and the story wrote itself. Sometimes it feels this way when you’re doing something you love and feel so natural in and it all just comes out. It was like that when I wrote these stories.

So the group wanted to know Shane’s story and although I refused at first to write, it came to me in a dream and I had one to tell. As everyone stared at me from their beds, eager to hear the story, I knew it was one that I could not tell for it was evil, it was death at one’s door.

The group, convinced that if once told the future could be altered, was more eager than ever to hear. And so I told the story knowing that it was false hope, that once death was at your door it could not be stopped and if anything, it would be worse.

Shane would die that night, the story foretold. He would fall asleep no matter how hard he tried. He would wander away, leaving the warmth of the orange glow and into the cold dark abyss of the night. And in this darkness, he would be struck by an oncoming car and there was nothing he could do.

The End.

A Dream Journal Series – Careful Where You Move

  • Date: 16th January 2021
  • Lucidity: 4 / 10
  • Vividity: 7 / 10
  • Realism: 8 / 10

We’re in our new place in South London. Recently moved as planned.

The first thing I see is how large the place is. It’s wooden floors and simple furniture, it’s shelves unmoved. It’s exciting as always being in a new place.

But that all changed the moment we took a step outside.

In front of our home was an area filled with young crazy people (which whom I recognize as hippies) dancing and waving their arms around to music unknown to me as if they were seeing and hearing something that I wasn’t. Whatever it was, I had the thought that it was induced from some sorts of drugs and having people like that right outside my doorstep was definitely not the plan.

At that moment my older brother, Michael turned up at my doorstep requesting me to come home to Sydney. He was quite convincing in that he was using the classic tactic of  telling me how there’s nothing here for me, that there’s no path forward here, that the family needed me back home. He said and quite randomly that my dad wanted to start his own railway business which did strike me as really odd and worrisome as if something had triggered my dad since I was gone. In any case, I was rejecting any notion of it, I was enjoying it here and still believed there was much to achieve.

We all started towards our van. I don’t recall where we were headed but wherever it was it didn’t matter because before I got there, the hippes from the party outside were already gathering around. One had taken up the drivers seat (which was in the middle section of a 3 section 6 seater van?) with my girlfriend next to him. Another two hippes had taken up the front seat whilst Michael was out back. I tried to jump in the drivers seat and remove the key but it was too late, the van had already begun to move! So I did the only thing I could of, was quickly take the back seat just to be in the van.

The hippy was crazy! His driving was definitely under the influence of substances and I was worried for our lives as he swerved left and right on the road ahead. After a few short minutes of his driving and extremely annoying hippy chants and in-car dancing, I had enough. I whispered into my girlfriends ear who was in front of me and told her to prepare to take over the wheel. When the time was right, I took the hippy by the neck from behind into a headlock. I was absolutely pissed off about the situation and was yelling to my girlfriend to park the car ASAP! She of course panicked and was doing the same, going left and right trying to find the perfect spot which made me even more anxious because I could see multiple spots where we could have stopped. This made me bring out my pissed off sarcastic self and I kept yelling here! here! here!

Eventually we did make a stop, I jumped out of the car and dragged each hippy out of our van with a punch to their face and a kick whilst they were on the ground for good luck. I was tempted to kick them some more before I decided otherwise and decided to leave, and so I did.

The End

A Losing Battle

“I realised a long time ago that the harder I resist and fight against my destiny, the more I am fighting a losing battle. Yes, you do create your own destiny but to an extent only, and when you start to see the difference between the two, everything changes.

JayysNotes

Personal Context – There’s somewhere I’m meant to be. Someone I’m meant to be with. I think about this all the time. The more I think about it, the more I think I am ready.

Goals of 2021 – Through Thick and Thin

How do I see through the fog of which I am about to embark?

At the end of each and every year just like a tradition, I write two letters to myself. A reflection of the year that has past and a look into the future, a year ahead to see the possibilities that lay before me. This is of the latter and I must admit, it is the hardest one I have ever had to write.

It would be easy for me to sit back and repeat the goals of 2020, many of which had been incomplete, put on hold because of world events. But that would mean that there had been no insights this year, that not only was the world put on hold, I was as well. Luckily for me, that’s not the case, upon pondering through my thoughts, 2021 looks to be one of the most important pivots of my life and below, my goals reflect that.

I challenge myself not only to take on the goals of 2020, but new daunting yet exciting ones as well. 2021 isn’t going to be easy, but then again, who said life was anything but, right?

  1. (On hold from 2020) A sense of community – One of the things that really surprised me this year was the overwhelming sense of shift in the community from an in-person perspective over to the virtual space. I’ve connected with a lot of great people within this online space but there’s always the missing element that only being next to someone can give. What this is exactly I am not yet sure, but I hope when we can all get together again without fear, I can rediscover this. To summarise, I am in search to make a deep connection with a community here in London, i.e. be an integral part of at least one community organisation or group by the end of 2021.
  2. (On hold from 2020) Travelling and exploring – 2020 was not the best year for eager travellers and explorers like myself and leading into the new year it still looks grim. I’m hoping that in the second half of 2021, we can rekindle this fire. It’s important to remember that my travel plans will continue to be led by my love for music, culture and people just as it was in the previous years. What I must do this year however is to make sure I meet more people along the way
  3. Healthy cooking and advanced baking – 2020 was a great year to explore my inner chef, being home all day for every meal meant that there was great opportunity to be creative. Now it’s time to take that to the next step. I want to really know what it is I am eating and how that fits into a “balanced” diet everyone keeps talking about. I’m looking at the food triangle as a good start for this but through this new year, I want to learn healthy recipes, eat less meat and more greens like mom always used to say. Baking on the other hand still feels like the dark arts! How does yeast work? why does flour quadruple it’s size in the oven, how can I bake something healthy without using a ridiculous amount of butter and sugar, really? If you know me, you know that i’m not much for sweets and I’ve always connected baking with being sweet. I know now that this is not always the case and will seek that out this year. Included in this is the making of baobaos and traditional Chinese baking!
  4. A new venture – Some of you might already know that I have something I’ve been working on through 2020. 2021 is the year I will try to build a new skillset to accompany that something. I’m talking about things like basic coding and website design, learning about business structure and finances. No matter what happens on this journey, there’s something I can learn and take from it.
  5. Reading at a higher level – 2020 was a great year for establishing some amazing reading habits. Every night now, I can’t fall asleep without having read my book! So the question for 2021 is, how can I top that? I’ve considered early morning reads, it’s a possibility and might be a really good start to the day. But one thing I know for sure is that I want to read a much more wider range of genres and go through a lot more books while I’m at it. Let’s set the goal at 25 books for 2021 and a large number of them to be non-fiction.
  6. Meditation & lucid dreaming – I began the practice of meditation over 10 years ago and what ties closely with that was the ability to learn to lucid dream. A few years back, I put this on hold. It was on hold because my sleeping patterns were off, I struggled to recall dreams and I was always moving from one place to another. This year, I want to bring that back. If this year permits, I’d like to attend some regular meditation classes and recall more dreams than I do now. I need to get into a regular pattern of dream journaling and finding a community out there who can support that.
  7. Social media frenzy – One of my big goals this year is to know exactly what information I take in day to day and from where. It’s crazy that in todays world, algorithms determine almost everything that you see on your social media feeds, so much so that you are drowned and lost in it! Today, my social media feeds are a total mess but with this goal, I want to clean it up. This includes improving the level of security on all my accounts, understanding how my data is being used and what I will and will not allow to be used, ensuring that I see my friends posts first before all else and making certain that the news outlets, articles, stories and content is one that is highly reliable from respectable sources and is of a high quality. Yes, that means this is the beginning of the end for many so called “news” outlets that use cryptic memes and comedic articles to subtly feed you their views.

So with that, I leave you with one thought. What are your goals for the year? How have you set them upon these uncertain times?

Thanks for reading. Happy goal setting and here’s a big wish for you and your family for good health and prosperity in the new year! Love, Jason.

Feature image – The opening celebration held at Tomorrowland, a famous yearly gathering of people from all around the world for the absolute appreciation for music, culture and love taken on the 18th of July 2019. It is only a matter of time that we are all reunited not only for the love of what this represents but the love for each other as a human species.